[It was ironic how so much of Sunny’s life was defined by the split-second decisions that impacted him.
A moment of anger
A deciding solitude
The opening of a door
A moment of panic-
All of it, split second feelings that led to something that changed the course of his life.
He couldn’t have known, didn’t see or smell or hear the well wishes, that people cared that much even though he had stayed in his room for four years and was moving away soon-
He nodded against Kel’s chest. As always, the other was giving him a way out. A pinch would be easier, probably hurt less (emotionally) for both of them if it came to that but for now… it was quiet and safe and Kel’s arms were like walls blocking out the rest.
(Even if Sunny’s viewpoint still had him looking down at his new shirt.)]
M’kay. [It was a noise of agreement, a half word, and then Sunny was listening. Listening as Kel talked in that familiar yet calm cadence. He froze at that admission - you have some strong bad ones tucked inside - but forced himself to relax.
Sunny did have too many feelings locked away. He normally didn’t show them, even Before, but they were always there - lurking beneath the surface, waiting to make themselves known—
Split second decisions.
A small voice inside Sunny whispered. You don’t understand. What I did. I’m not worth it.
He squashed it down, shoved it back inside that sterile room, and whispered his own defiance.]
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/cries, also good job Kel, you avoided his knee jerk reaction
Date: 2025-05-13 05:48 pm (UTC)A moment of anger
A deciding solitude
The opening of a door
A moment of panic-
All of it, split second feelings that led to something that changed the course of his life.
He couldn’t have known, didn’t see or smell or hear the well wishes, that people cared that much even though he had stayed in his room for four years and was moving away soon-
He nodded against Kel’s chest. As always, the other was giving him a way out. A pinch would be easier, probably hurt less (emotionally) for both of them if it came to that but for now… it was quiet and safe and Kel’s arms were like walls blocking out the rest.
(Even if Sunny’s viewpoint still had him looking down at his new shirt.)]
M’kay. [It was a noise of agreement, a half word, and then Sunny was listening. Listening as Kel talked in that familiar yet calm cadence. He froze at that admission - you have some strong bad ones tucked inside - but forced himself to relax.
Sunny did have too many feelings locked away. He normally didn’t show them, even Before, but they were always there - lurking beneath the surface, waiting to make themselves known—
Split second decisions.
A small voice inside Sunny whispered. You don’t understand. What I did. I’m not worth it.
He squashed it down, shoved it back inside that sterile room, and whispered his own defiance.]
…will try…
[Even if it was a lie…]