[He does see Sunny go down like a sack that has been suddenly emptied and his reaction is immediate, he moves forward to block the fall. Sunny's body. Going down. Limp and careless like nothing really mattered-
There's something about Sunny and falling that by association causes Kel's stomach to close off. It's irrelevant if his knees would scrape against the floor or he would get hurt, the instinct is 'stop the fall'.
He did fail that once and the guilt is never leaving him. Guilt ramps up once more, not only he is the real reason Sunny is death but now a gift managed to turn everything into a mess. He's almost glad when he realizes Sunny is unconscious because there's no need to keep up a brave facade, nor to act like it doesn't matter if he'll never see his parents, his dog and his friends ever again. He doesn't have to act like it's okay if they're losing themselves at every step, he can just let himself go for a moment.
He shifts his position, crossing his legs and letting Sunny rest on the like he was a child cradled by a father, and with the arm that's not supporting his friend... the hand moves up, covering his face, as he allows himself to silently weep for a moment. Everything is just so much and while he has to be back in fighting state by the time the other is 'back' (and, god, who knows what Sunny will do or act like), Kel needs a moment to be just himself.]
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Ah, yeah, I'm sure that's the only thing Kel was concerned about.
Date: 2025-05-16 06:43 pm (UTC)There's something about Sunny and falling that by association causes Kel's stomach to close off. It's irrelevant if his knees would scrape against the floor or he would get hurt, the instinct is 'stop the fall'.
He did fail that once and the guilt is never leaving him. Guilt ramps up once more, not only he is the real reason Sunny is death but now a gift managed to turn everything into a mess. He's almost glad when he realizes Sunny is unconscious because there's no need to keep up a brave facade, nor to act like it doesn't matter if he'll never see his parents, his dog and his friends ever again. He doesn't have to act like it's okay if they're losing themselves at every step, he can just let himself go for a moment.
He shifts his position, crossing his legs and letting Sunny rest on the like he was a child cradled by a father, and with the arm that's not supporting his friend... the hand moves up, covering his face, as he allows himself to silently weep for a moment. Everything is just so much and while he has to be back in fighting state by the time the other is 'back' (and, god, who knows what Sunny will do or act like), Kel needs a moment to be just himself.]